beautiful nightmare

Exams have finished and I'm trying to keep myself occupied. However, I still think about how happy I was in my past relationship, how we used to be and wonder why it wouldn't have worked in his eyes. Sometimes I feel that I understand his position and sometimes I feel that everything is just so stupid. One thing that doesn't change is that, I know that I miss having him in my life, that special someone that I can talk to, rely on and share my life with. I miss seeing his crooked smile and hearing his unique laugh. But I can't do anything about it now. I have to move on. There's no point in living in the past. I have to live in the present, do the best that I can in everything that I attempt and make myself useful. 

I have been thinking about this a bit lately - LOVE IS NOT LOGICAL 

Love is not something that can be defined as it varies from people to people, couple to couple, culture to culture. Still, there is no exact definition. But people feel uncomfortable having some unexplainable emotion take over them and drive their actions. And then choose to run from it and say that it's not love. Why do people always want to define and logify the unexplainable? 

There is no explanation as to why one may fall in love with someone that is totally different from you or why there is no spark with someone that you may think is perfect for you. Love is just not logical. So don't be afraid if you don't understand.